Thursday, March 18, 2010

Army this, Army that.

Ever since I found out that Marcus's AIT has most likely been extended I have been thinking about how in the world I am going to do it without him until September or early October. That is like 3-4 months of Aiden's life that he will be missing. It feels like I can't do all of this without him. So my dad suggested today that maybe I move down there once Aiden is born-just for a few months while he is finishing his training. There are a few problems to that though that I have been pondering.

1. I will be living ALONE with a newborn with no close family around (sure it is only like 7 hours away, but I still don't know how well that will work)
2. I don't know how leases work when you are in the Army. Could I just break a lease once the training is over and we have our orders to go somewhere else?
3. I don't know what I would do down there really. I mean I have "met" a few of the wives (over Facebook at least) of the guys that Marcus has gotten really close to at basic and will be going with him to AIT, but I don't know anyone that could watch Aiden if I got a job or anything to pass the time since, from what I have heard, Marcus only gets the weekends off.
4. I feel like being at home right now with my parents for the last time is kinda preparing me for moving away, because who knows how far away we will be stationed and both Marcus's and my parents are saying how they haven't even met their grandchild yet and they are having to prepare to not see him very much. It just kinda makes me sad and I guess I have been thinking that a few more months here will give them at least a little time with him.

I don't know. I have been going back and forth with this all day. I know he would love us being down there and being able to spend time with him on his weekends off and I would feel a lot more at ease being close to him, but at the same time it may be just too hard with a little one and the fact that I have never lived anywhere else but here is kinda playing a role too I guess. 



Sometimes I feel like all these separation anxieties are driving me insane. I am trying to figure out what in the world God is trying to teach us from all of this, but obviously he doesn't want us to know yet! I pray and pray every day that he shows me what to do and so far I have felt like he has been telling me just to go with the flow. Now I don't even know. I guess all these changes and everything can get overwhelming at times. In the end though, I know that they are making our relationship stronger than ever. We are learning every day to trust each other even more than we already do and well the distance is just pulling us closer together. It is still tough though. Some days I just feel overwhelmed by everything. In the end though, this was Marcus's decision. He believes that it is what is best for us and our soon to be family and well I trust him. I am so proud of him too. He is working his butt off to learn to serve our country and seeing him come home in uniform will be well worth it. <3 






Sunday, March 14, 2010

Without You Next To Me I Toss And Turn Like The Sea

This past month and a half has been tough. I have been trying to keep myself busy while Marcus is gone it is just hard. For the first few weeks of basic I got lots of calls...not all of them very long, but still. I now have gone three weeks without any calls. Sure, I get plenty of letters it just isn't the same. I want to hear his voice again so bad. One month until his graduation. It is still so far away. I just recently found a site that has pictures of his platoon. I was kinda excited to see them! I accually found a picture of Marcus too!
See the guy with his legs crossed? Yeah that would be hubby :)) haha

This would be where he sleeps. Regulators! Hooah!

On a different note, I had another ultrasound at 24 weeks (I am now 26 weeks!)
We found out that it is a boy for sure!
Aiden Jaye Lowry should be making his first appearance on June 16.




Also I finished all of my high school on Thursday! Yaay! So I am now a Coronado graduate :)

Well, it is 1:38 in the morning. I really need to try and get some sleep!
Until next time..

Thursday, February 11, 2010

2010-a year of change

Many things have happened since this year started.

First of all me and Marcus tied the knot on January 1 it was very pretty and it went by so quickly, but we are very very happy and  grateful for the few close friends and family members that came to help us celebrate our happy day. 




(not very many pictures but there are just so many!)


Also the dreaded day came where Marcus had to leave for Fort Benning, Georgia to begin his basic training. I'm very sad that I had to send him off, but i'll see him again on April 15th. Believe me, I am counting down the days!